15th January seems to be getting closer and closer; I haven't even started on my packing and preparations. New year, new beginnings, new life? Somehow I find myself still hesitating. It has been a constant battle with my inner demons, and I have yet to emerge victorious...I found old suicide notes among my belongings, no, they're not mine, they were written by one of my friends. There were several sheet of paper, addressed to people close to her. Then suddenly I realized something...I no longer harbor suicidal thoughts! Thinking back, it has been quite awhile since those thoughts infested my mind. Thanks to school maybe? I have been kept busy and occupied...Soon I'll be at KL - will those thoughts return? Hope not!